Pregnancy Diaries: 37 Weeks

My husband and I can’t believe we are getting SO close! Just this week we have finished preparing the house and now all there’s left to do is pack all of our hospital bags! Such a simple tasks but it means so much to me. It feels like this last thing solidifies that anytime, any moment our little one can make his grand entrance into the world.

My husband has been so great, every night he wants to do one thing that will make us that much more ready for our sweet son. It makes my heart happy to see him so eager to make room for him! A couple nights ago we rearranged our room to put his basinet at the head of our bed! I can’t help but think about all the nights he will wake up crying out for us to pick him up to kiss and snuggle him. What a gift having children is. I could cry just thinking about how much of a blessing and honor this is!

Lately on my timeline I have been seeing a lot of women talk about how they are preparing their bodies for childbirth. I am not going to lie, it is all a little overwhelming to see how these women are working out, eating the dates, drinking the teas, spending time with their doulas and midwives, and here I am going into this with just Joshua and the Lord. I ask myself, “Was I naive to think I didn’t have to indulge in everything else?” After I examine all the things these women are doing that I am not , I get quickly reminded by the Holy Spirit that Joshua and the almighty God is all I need to bring this sweet gift into the world. I have all that I need!

Everything in my life I have felt some control. Even if it was small, it brought me satisfaction. But the way my pregnancy has been has kept me solely dependent on the Lord and the help of my amazing husband. For me, and my situation, I think the Lord always wanted things this way. And for that I am thankful. I feel God saying,

"Do you believe that I can bring you through this, or again, do you think it will be by your own strength?" 

That is a gut punch question because I am reminded about how I’ve fought for my hand to be in things only the Lord needed to be in control of. My response to the Lord now would be,

“I give up, I only need you.”

Childbirth isn’t as intimidating or scary as I always thought it was going to be because for once in my life I have truly surrendered my will for His. I have surrendered control to lean on my heavenly Father to walk us through this. I love and appreciate all those mamas on the gram sharing how they are preparing for birth, but I know how the Lord wants me to prepare. He is teaching me so much and I am just grateful and so expectant to see how he shows up for us.

We have started declaring the word of God over my womb, over the baby, and over the birth.

My hips will widen.

The baby will be at peace and work with me to deliver him.

We will have the best nurses and doctors.

My birth will be quick.

I will not be afraid.

I will see the goodness of the Lord in our birth story.

Our baby’s birth will bring glory to the name of Jesus.

These are some of the things that I am choosing to speak over myself. What a beautiful experience this will be relying on JUST the the Lord and my husband.

Love you sis,

Hannah

What things do you feel lead to give up control over to let God handle it for you?